melancholic mid-tempo pop, sad with a fair pace

Growing up life was never easy. My earliest memories is that of my mother and father fighting with bare fist my sister's crying while the house is in chaos, nothing but screaming and yelling and fighting day after day. Never having birthdays. Never experiencing what a Holiday could be always watching others through their windows in the neighborhood eating and enjoying and happy with family. We always wished we knew what that was like then we would always wish for the things we never had there were never always bad times but there were so few good memories that it's as if it never happened All our lives can only be described as hell some worse than others. If there is a God would we have to have been born in a world without any love as we grew older All My Brothers and sisters slowly eventually grow apart. We all grew distant. We all stayed quiet. We all kept to ourselves and never reached out. I can only speak for myself but growing up never having a bed to sleep on starving day by day. Just trying to get by Year after year celebration after celebration that we can never have. I made a promise that one day we would get to experience that the day I finally got myself a job for the first time. I enjoyed myself a meal that I never thought possible. It may seem ridiculous to a lot of others But eating at restaurants was a luxury we could never afford I'm glad life is the way it is now. It took a while but finally My family have begun to reunite after all the lies and rumors spread And the truth finally revealed, we all finally started to heal there is more to the story that I can't say but it is not in the past that I wish to stay for the first time I threw a birthday party for my sister. I threw a new years for my family. We started traditions that we never thought we could ever do and I say it is worth all the money in the world just to enjoy the year as we do not get another next and tomorrow is never promised