Deafening Silent Scream

**(Verse 1)**
Born in static, skull full of knives
Momma's bottle crashing, Daddy's fists carving lies into my spine
Neglect ate my childhood alive, left me hollow, gutted and raw
Voices fucking with me before I could crawl, whispering kill yourself at dawn
Shadows raped my sleep every night, trauma pumping hot through my veins
Little boy drowning slow in their acid rain, learning love only brings pain

**(Pre-Chorus)**
I carried their wreckage like chains wrapped tight around my throat
Swallowed the screams so deep they became the only note I wrote

**(Chorus)**
I'm the fucking wreckage, the scream that never dies
Schizo demons ripping holes behind my eyes
Abuse shattered every bone, addiction swallowed my soul
Spouse's fists and needles dug the blackest hole
I claw through hell with blood on my teeth
For the kid they broke, for the child that needs me
Properly fucked in America's grinding machine
Still breathing fire — raw, ruined, and finally free

**(Verse 2)**
She loved me with bruises blooming purple and black
Kissed me with broken glass, promised forever then stabbed me in the back
Woke up choking on relapse in a puddle of my own sick
Begging gods or devils for one more pass, one more hit, one more fix
Paranoia whispering loud "they all want you dead and gone"
Forgot my own fucking name in the mirror, just a stranger looking on
Childhood ghosts and adult chains, same rusted fucking noose
Every sober second rips me open, feels like deliberate self-abuse

**(Verse 3)**
Hallucinations dancing wild while the real world burned
Demons in the daylight laughing as my sanity turned
Forgot how to breathe without the voices giving commands
Schizo symphony conducting chaos with bloody hands
Trauma flashbacks hitting harder than any punch
Addiction's cold cunt pulling me under for lunch

**(Chorus)**
I'm the fucking wreckage, the scream that never dies
Schizo demons ripping holes behind my eyes
Abuse shattered every bone, addiction swallowed my soul
Spouse's fists and needles dug the blackest hole
I claw through hell with blood on my teeth
For the kid they broke, for the child that needs me
Properly fucked in America's grinding machine
Still breathing fire — raw, ruined, and finally free

**(Verse 4)**
Tiny hands on my scars, eyes wide like mine used to bleed
Begging "Daddy stay whole," forcing me to my knees
Swore on every broken bone I'd kill the cycle dead
No more ghosts haunting the innocence in their head
Bills like iron shackles, dead-end shifts in the rot
American dream a lie sold to those already bought
Voices screaming murder plots while I rock them to sleep
Holding back the flood of madness, praying I don't fucking weep

**(Bridge)**
I taste the copper failure dripping from every wound I hide
Smell the smoke of every bridge I burned just to survive
Relapse funerals piling high, every high my last goodbye
Felt the void where love should live — hollow, endless, black inside
Not healed, just bleeding prettier under these harsh lights
Fucked-up miracle stitched together wrong but still willing to fight
Every scar a story, every tear a silent war
Crawling bloody-knuckled toward something more

**(Final Chorus)**
I'm the fucking wreckage, the scream that never dies
Schizo demons ripping holes behind my eyes
Abuse shattered every bone, addiction swallowed my soul
Spouse's fists and needles dug the blackest hole
I claw through hell with blood on my teeth
For the kid they broke, for the child that needs me
Properly fucked in America's grinding machine
Still breathing fire — raw, ruined, and finally ME

**(Outro)**
Voices may roar like thunder in my skull
But my heart beats louder, defiant and full
For you, little one, we shatter the powder
Trauma don't own this blood, this hour
I'm the properly fucked-up miracle still climbing blind
Raw, brutal, addicted to staying alive
Light floods where the fractures bleed deep
Still here, motherfucker — watch me bleed, watch me leap