A Heart of Gold

(Verse 1)[A solitary piano starts. Quiet, intimate, conversational.]I get it, Lord. I know how the story goes.You test the ones you love through the highs and lows.You put us in the fire just to see if we melt,But I don’t think You realize how hard this hand was dealt.I’ve walked the floor at midnight till my shoes wore thin,Looking at the ceiling, wondering where to begin.I'm so tired of the quiet. I'm so tired of the dark.I'm tired of sleeping on the left side of a broken heart.(Verse 2)[A subtle, pulsing bass drum enters, building tension.]Look, I know I’ve done some wrong, I ain’t trying to deny,But You know the kind of person that I am inside.You built this heart of gold, You know it doesn't fake,But there’s only so much bending before a soul has got to break.And I am right there on the edge tonight,Hands in the air, losing the fight.(Chorus)[The music explodes here. Heavy drums, massive strings, maximum vocal power.]So please! Just let me be happy for a change!Let the sun burn through the pouring rain!I just want to hold my son, feel loved, feel wanted too,I want to breathe without the terror of what tomorrow's gonna do!God, this struggle is a sickness, it is killing me too fast,I’ve got nothing left to give You, I am breathing on my last.So please... let me be happy for a change.(Verse 3)[The music drops back down, leaving just a heavy acoustic guitar heartbeat.]They say You give Your toughest wars to the soldiers who are strong,But You’ve left me on this battlefield for way too damn long.I don't need a miracle that parts the entire sea,I just need a break from the gravity pulling on me.(Chorus)[Full explosion again. Belted out with raw, shaking emotion.]So please! Just let me be happy for a change!Let the sun burn through the pouring rain!I just want to hold my son, feel loved, feel wanted too,I want to breathe without the terror of what tomorrow's gonna do!God, this struggle is a sickness, it is killing me too fast,I’ve got nothing left to give You, I am breathing on my last.So please... let me be happy for a change.(Bridge)[The music stops completely. Total silence, then a raw vocal with just a single piano chord.]I don’t want the world.I don’t care about the gold.I just want my boy’s hand for mine to hold.No more worry. No more pain.Just a little bit of peace...(Guitar Solo / Orchestral Climax)[An incredibly emotional, soaring instrumental break that carries the unresolved pain up into the sky.](Outro)[Sinking back into absolute quiet. Whispered.]Yeah, my heart is made of gold.But I’m losing the fight.Please, Lord...For a change.