Drums, Piano

The Life I Wanted

Verse 1
There was a time when home disappeared,
And Mama held us through all of her fears,
Three little hearts with nowhere to go,
Trying to find somewhere safe to call home.

One of us never got to grow old,
A story that ended before it was told,
And I still wonder what she would've been,
The sister I lost, the memories within.

Pre-Chorus
I kept asking, “Where is Dad?”
Mama didn't know what to say,
So I learned to live with questions
That never went away.

Chorus
I wanted a life where we stayed together,
Where goodbye didn't last forever,
Where Mama didn't have to carry everything,
Where my sister could still be here with me.
I wanted a home that wouldn't disappear,
A father who would always be near,
But life wrote a story I never chose,
And somehow, we kept going.
This wasn't the life I wanted.

Verse 2
Then one day, you came back again,
And I was just a child back then,
I was so happy to see your face,
Not knowing what had changed in that place.

I thought maybe we'd finally be whole,
Maybe you'd come back and fill that hole,
But sometimes people return too late,
And coming home doesn't undo the pain.

Pre-Chorus
I grew up with things I couldn't explain,
Mama kept smiling through all of the pain,
And I started learning as I grew
That some questions don't have answers too.

Chorus
I wanted a life where we stayed together,
Where goodbye didn't last forever,
Where Mama didn't have to carry everything,
Where my sister could still be here with me.
I wanted a home that wouldn't disappear,
A father who would always be near,
But life wrote a story I never chose,
And somehow, we kept going.
This wasn't the life I wanted.

Bridge
Mama, I know you tried,
Even when you didn't know what to say,
You carried us through every change,
And somehow found a way.

And to the sister I still remember,
I wish you could've seen today,
I wonder who you'd be right now,
And what you'd have to say.

Maybe I can't change yesterday,
Maybe I can't rewrite what was done,
But I can carry what we survived
And become someone.

Final Chorus
I wanted a life where we stayed together,
Where love could've held us forever,
Where Mama never had to stand alone,
Where every child could make it home.
I wanted a life without so many goodbyes,
Without questions I carried inside,
But even though I didn't choose this road,
I'm still walking it.
I'm still growing.
I'm still here.

Outro
Maybe this isn't the life I wanted...
But it's the life I'm living.
And I'll carry them with me
Wherever I go.