Hurt and full of pain, R&B, Dark

**Verse 1**
Caught up in my mind, yeah, I’m lost in the haze,
Pushin’ you away, mom, in so many ways,
Thought I was tough, thought I could stand alone,
But I was just a kid, scared to call it home.
You gave me love, but I turned it to pain,
Now I’m drowning in regret, like I’m caught in the rain.
Told myself the family didn’t care,
But you were fightin’ battles, I was never aware.

**Chorus**
Now I’m here, heartbroken, wishin’ I could rewind,
To the days when your love was the light I could find.
I’m sorry for the hurt, for the words that I said,
Now I’m haunted by the silence, wishin’ you were here instead.
Mom, can you forgive me? I’m lost in this fight,
Every day’s a struggle, I’m just searchin’ for light.

**Verse 2**
At 22, I lost the best part of me,
Thought I was chasin’ love, but it was never meant to be.
All the nights I pushed you, all the tears that you cried,
Now I’m left with shadows, and I can’t run and hide.
You were my warrior, fightin’ cancer with grace,
While I was lost in my anger, couldn’t see your face.
I hate myself for the pain that I caused,
Now I’m left with this guilt, and I’m feelin’ so lost.

**Chorus**
Now I’m here, heartbroken, wishin’ I could rewind,
To the days when your love was the light I could find.
I’m sorry for the hurt, for the words that I said,
Now I’m haunted by the silence, wishin’ you were here instead.
Mom, can you forgive me? I’m lost in this fight,
Every day’s a struggle, I’m just searchin’ for light.

**Bridge**
I chased all the wrong things, thought I needed more,
But the love that I wanted was right at my door.
Now I’m left with memories, echoes of your voice,
If I could turn back time, I’d make a different choice.
I’d hold you close, tell you how much you mean,
But now I’m just a shadow, lost in what could’ve been.

**Chorus**
Now I’m here, heartbroken, wishin’ I could rewind,
To the days when your love was the light I could find.
I’m sorry for the hurt, for the words that I said,
Now I’m haunted by the silence, wishin’ you were here instead.
Mom, can you forgive me? I’m lost in this fight,
Every day’s a struggle, I’m just searchin’ for light.

**Outro**
So here’s my letter, mom, from your son, Booga,
I hope you can see me, I’m tryin’ to be stronger.
I’ll carry your love, through the pain and the strife,
Forever in my heart, you’re the light of my life.
I love you, mom, I hope you can see,
That I’m fightin’ for your love, eternally.